back to the blog with some exhilarating news!!!!

its been a long time since I blogged last. There is a reason I am back.......its my baby!!! Our first born- our son, expected arrival, Jan 4th 2009. Needless to say, the mom and dad are both in cloud nine. Me, I have been looking forward to this day all my life. With all the joy and delirium, comes the anxiety. Every week there are new symptoms, new signs (sometimes good sometime bad) and new test results that can throw you off gear. I remember climbing the scale every morning for the last 6 months to track my weight gain.
It all started in April 2008. I had the first hint, the first blood test- and voila-just like that I found out I was expecting. I still remember, it took us about a month to actually adjust to this new thought, specially Siddharth, he wouldn't believe it till our first prenatal appointment and the first ultrasound. OMG!! our baby looked like a small pea cocooned in my womb. I can't explain to you the surge of emotions I felt. Immediately, every part of me wanted to go in there and hold it in my arms, protect it so that nothing happens to it. So there it is- Siddharth was going to be a "dad" and I was going to be a "ma". I still remember the look in Siddharth's eyes when I showed him the first snap of our baby.....it was a mix of disbelief, joy, anxiety and something else, that I can't explain.....but suddenly he had his arms around me and we walked like that all the way to the car and the first stop we made was at the nearest Cold Stone creamery- because Mom bear you need to eat right....says Pappa bear.
Weeks passed by- with both me and siddharth pouring over the internet, trying to take in every possible detail about fetal growth. My parents were with us, Ma made all possible nutritious stuffs for me, cause the focus now was " you need to eat right, your baby will get all the nutrition from you". The first three months were tough, I literally threw up everything.......every morsel. But thanks to Ma's endless efforts, I still managed to feed myself with something. We waited eagerly for the 20th week. There will be a second Ultrasound and that can tell us if its a boy or a girl. Finally, the big revelation-ITS A BOY!!!!!! we saw our son, fully formed, covering his face with his hands on the ultrasound. It was a perfect kodac moment!!!! Next week, our Gyn called with a shocking news- your baby has just one artery in the umbilical chord instead of two. What does that mean? we were full of questions, nervous needless to say. Once again we searched the internet, called up bade bhaiya for clarifications and literally did everything in our power to understand the biological consequences of it. Needless to say, the more we learnt, the more my heart sank and I prayed and prayed that nothing should happen to my sweetipie. Now we had to sign up for a second level US to evaluate fetal development. Once again I was on the Ultrasound table-luckily we had a wonderful person performing the ultrasound. Our son was checked from all possible angles for any possible abnormality. Thankfully no issues. Finally, they performed a doppler to check the cardiac functions (apparently a major issue in fetuses with SUV syndrome), but our gudda's heart was beating away strong and loud. So we got the final nod from the doctors, our son is perfect!!!!!!!!!!!!! nothing to worry.....Phew!!!!!!!!!
weeks have passed by since then, I have grown a huge tummy, I can actually feel my little one moving inside me. I try to correlate its movement with things i ate, music i listened, stuffs i saw on the tv, things that i told him.......it has been my favorite pass time. I talk to him throughout the day on and off, as if he is my little friend, while his dad chants the gayatri mantra to him before going to bed every night. Our new dad is a whole new person now, every night he checks with me the cups of milk I had, fruits and nuts I ate, and ofcourse the medicines.
My clothes are growing tighter everyday, I feel tired at times, but amidst everything, there is this one dream- I am holding my baby in my arms, kissing his forehead and whispering in his ears- your Ma loves you a lot!!!
Can't wait to buy the baby stuffs, re-do my room to make it baby friendly and above all be a Ma.
Will keep posting in this journal as we go on (27th week).